courses registered for next semester yet i feel im taking yet too little modules.. need to add more during the add drop period i guess.. i work well under stress and i need to take more modules to become more hardworking or ill fall behind yet again..

results for special semester coming out thursday night.. lets pray it is good.. amin.

thank god for us taking our special semester the past years.. now special semester must be paid.. 500 dollars per module.. it use to be free in NTU.. now we gotta pay becos in NUS that is done.. but why? i mean yes the email did explain its logic but why cant they think of us.. its not like we WANT to study during our holidays.. we do it to finish our degree clearly enuff in time and that also we are made to pay.. is this society all abt money? is the world all abt that? money makes a living but it shouldnt stop u from living ur life the way it should..


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all those smiles.. all those fake smiles.. fake words.. fake happiness to meet someone.. sometimes i wonder if one can differentiate a real smile from a fake one.. its not that i do not want to smile sincerely but once bitten twice shy.. when i bring u into my world and get to know u.. spend time with u and drive u around and i get ur VIP in ur life come smsing me and telling me off like i ever mattered to ur relationship makes me wonder.. if u so much as cared abt the people arnd u u wld never approve having ur VIP come attacking the ones who TRIED to show they cared.. butttt.. fortunately i dun even wana try animore.. i cant even be bothered.. i know who can be made frens and who cant.. i know who can be trusted and who cant.. been thru quite a lot in life to be an expert at that..

what makes me question the friendship is that u never did come by say sorry.. i mean yes he came by said sorry and bla bla bla.. ok.. forgiven but surely not forgotten.. my memory is there for a reason.. but u.. u go silent after being questioned.. then come smiling at me when we meet like there was nutin u had to say or do.. dun leave the matter hanging cos i personally hate that..


it just comes to my attention as i enter the house.. the stares.. the smiles and the not so good looks.. i wonder whether the arab world is all abt analyzing one's good and another's bad.. why cant we just learn from Martin Seligman abt positive psychology?

a movement in psychology to look at the good in people instead of concentrating on the bad.. but i feel the arab world in singapore at least is filled with traditional do's and dont's and also traditional biasness.. i mean honestly.. have u ever been to a majlis.. just one arab majlis without having hearing words from some arab lady that u wldnt like to hear? or just entering a majlis and feeling so comfortable and happy where u are.. its like once u step into that house u are scrutinized from ur head to ur toe.. and sumtimes u just wana give a tight slap to every single stare u see..


the competitiveness in this world has brought out the worst character in people..
1. the ones who lie and keep on lying to save face..
2. the ones who talk bad about others and continue to do so that they(or their child) remain better than those "bad" ones..
3. the ones who cant be happy for the good they find in others but instead spend time digging the bad in them so as to make themselves feel better..
4. the ones who smile at u in front and give all kind of phrases but speak of u bad to others behind ur back..


sumtimes i look at those who definitely much more knowledgable than me in religion.. im learning and will always continue learning.. i see these people having characters that arent so pleasant and quite not what is taught in Islam.. and i see frens whom have wonderful characters.. the kind soul the sweet soul who lack religious knowledge definitely.. i wonder why.. when religion is suppose to make u better.. is the gain of knowledge for them in religion over the other girls something they boast themselves with? does it make them feel god loves them more and therefore they are able to have characters that i definitely despise?


god loves all the same.. but yes we shld want to learn more abt religion.. every single day if u have time.. if u dun have try make time.. and god will show it to u.. but dun be sombong with ur knowledge and where u are becos it just might backfire becos religion definitely comes from the heart.. it comes from wanting to learn more and more and never saying u know enuff or more than another..


it brings me to a fren of mine i knew who wanted to teach his fren how to read the quran well.. he wasnt sombong abt being knowledgable.. instead he wanted to help and make his fren a better reader and hamba allah s.w.t.. masya'allah.. a noble deed rush.. yes it didnt surface.. but as long as the niat is there... thats gd enuff..



which brings me to another topic.. the other day my parents were talking about the syed sharifah issue.. and i tell u i have the most neutral parents i tink.. esp my father.. he says its berdosa for one to not get married just becos he/she didnt get a syed/sharifah becos marriage is a sacred thing and is something all should never live without.. syed/sharifah is just a traditional mindset.. one arabs used in the past becos they realised that arabs and other races have different cultures and set of rules.. every different race is different and to allow smooth transition for both with in-laws.. it is ENCOURAGED to marry one from ur own clan.. but it is NOT A MUST..

dun be mistaken..encouragement for syed/sharifah marriages is only for smooth transition for families.. it is not sumtin that is a must.. it doesnt make our ancestors cry or anitin like that.. we are all equal.. keturunan rasullullah s.a.w or not.. we are all humans and we all will be given a fair chance to live and love.. being keturunan rasullullah s.a.w there is more we have to live up to.. more rights and yet i see so much more wrongs from us than those from other clans.. but im gonna leave that aside...

so for those who believe that we syed/sharifah are all abt ourselves please understand we are not and that there is no restriction.. for those who claim that arnd u.. laugh at their statement and ask them to ask any ustaz or habib and they will get the reality of it all.. yes arabs respect us arnd the world yet here people find fault with the syed/sharifah issue and i dun get why.. maybe they wana feel equal..


and yes.. definitely we ARE ALL equal.. so why the respect overseas from those in countries who have been a part in the history of rasullullah s.a.w? that lies in the history.. if u really wanna noe then go ahead and find out why..

basically the gist of it is just that becos of the great amount of love and respect for rasullullah s.a.w by the people and therefore the same love and respect is given to his family and generations.. their love for the prophet is pure and not based on books or teachings but by their history and their encounter with the prophet and this love has been passed down for generations.. here in s'pore.. its all thru teachings and words and for those who refuse to embrace it with sincerity will try find holes in the teachings and try to go against it.. there comes the misunderstanding then..

i remembered the talk i went for organised by ba'alwi the other time about the rise and fall of the ottoman empire or sumtin like that.. the speaker even mentioned that there the generations from the prophet are highly respected and looked up to.. and one thing that struck me was when he mentioned that over there.. if the parents named their child muhammad then in life these boys will be called "momad" or "mahmad" instead becos the name muhammad is sacred and if it was use in scolding of their children it wld be rude and not respectful to the prophet.. n it made a whole lot of sense to me..

therefore.. if u do name ur child muhammad sumhow in the future do make sure u make a nickname for him so that when u scold him in the future u do not use or hina the great name of muhammad.. masya'allah..


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gettting away from that topic.. holiday at terengganu was alrite.. i mean 4 of us.. quite boring laa cos u dun have cousins to play cards with or do things with.. and spent so much time on the bus rides i tink ive gained 9865456890kg on my butt.. seriously.. i really wana go KL though and spend time with my cousins.. but im out of cousins to go with.. faizah has school.. hamudi has school.. mohmad has ns police.. farhana is at indonesia on holiday.. hanan was in abu dhabi the last i smsed her.. ali is at johor but he is working.. unless he wants to go up during weekends.. hmmm.. nahhh.. dun tink u want kan ali? haizzz... the rest are already there in KL.. oh well.. forget it then..


yet im happy enuff.. seeing close to 15 bags filled of things for me.. bags..wallets.. slippers.. tudungs( super many of those i love).. tops(those i love wearing).. arbaya.. brooch..necklace..baju panjang arab.. guess from who?

all from my dear hearing and seeing me in tears because i cldnt go to KL that time.. i was soo depressed.. really depressed and he made it up for me.. how wonderful.. i loved all he got and he tricked me by saying he only bought a few tudungs.. came to meet me the day he came back and brought one huge bag filled with the things when i only expected tudungs.. how wonderful.. :)

and i loved every single thing.. every one of it.. though the arbaya was too big for me but the length was just nice.. i just need to alter it... u and ur mom made my days for not being able to go up and wiped away all the tears i cried for not being able to go.. :) thank u dear.. :)


with all those wonderful gifts theres no need for me to go KL.. though id really love to to see my cousins and spend time with them like i use to becos i miss them very much.. but its ok.. maybe when time permits.. :)

btw ive told myself year 3 must be geared up to.. im gonna be with nur much in year 3.. im gonna study with her at the library whenever possible.. im gonna help her to make her more sociable..and shes gonna help me to make me back to my studious salwa.. with this maybe ill be in school more often and attend lectures more often.. :) that reminds me that i shld sms her.. haha.. insya'allah it works out well.. amin.


pictures galore then



subuh prayers at this masjid in pahang..



another look at the masjid..



postcard 1 picture



postcard 2 picture



postcard 3 picture




standing tall..

these are pictures at a beach famous in pahang..



hamid sent us off!! hehe:)




heaven sent



belanja makan by ami idrus at singgah selalu.. how many of us were there? 25 i tink? haha




she loves me and i love her dearly..




my very cool aunties..hehe





my beautiful cousins..:)




my gorgeous grandparents.. :)




my wonderful father and uncles.. :)




how can i not love him? :)




the mischief he does..hahaha.. ;)




:)




hamid goes into aunty insaff's house.. goes into one of the room and gets on one of the bed.. and simply puts himself in that position for us to stumble upon.. omigod.. how cute can that be? and it happened to be the bed i always sleep in when im there.. awwww.. :)




as we make noise he turns and smile at us.. :) fyi he pulled up his own blanket above.. we did nutin..




hi beautiful fika.. :)




look at my cute ami man.. i take his pic and he takes mine.alalalala.. :)





at the back of the car.. :)





stefanie sun.. omg.. and of all people in the auditorium my face and my sister's face had to come out in news.. like seriously.. why? dahla dua2 muka garang nak makan orang..hahaha.. yes habib hasan.. 2nd time..




happiness to meet him as he came back from KL.. and to receive the wonderful gifts..weeee




you're mine..




sephia bored..



angry cos he was late.. terberak2 his excuse.. hmmmm....





anger rising and boredom sets in.. camwhore time..haha..


alrite then.. tahts all for now.. u will see my next post in a month or two maybe? hahahaha.. ;)


i cant wait to get my tv series from hamudiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii woohooooooooooooooooo!!!


ok nak call u know who now.. cheerios.. nites people!